I can barely see straight and not sure I should even post this… I was told on Saturday that I was pregnant. I was told on Tuesday the embryo had died. I have no more eggs to try. I have no more eggs to retrieve. I have no energy to try again. I am mourning the loss of a baby and the loss of ever having a biological child. I don’t want to brush myself off and move on. I wish the embryo never implanted. Cruel joke to think for 72 hours that this 1 fighter that tested chromosomally normal was growing inside of me.
No one talks about part 2 of egg freezing. We need to start. If I could do it all again I would:
- Freeze multiple rounds
- Freeze embryos
- Really understand my AMH and FSH levels
- Stop working so many hours at shitty jobs
- Not count on my frozen eggs to work