I can barely see straight and not sure I should even post this… I was told on Saturday that I was pregnant. I was told on Tuesday the embryo had died. I have no more eggs to try. I have no more eggs to retrieve. I have no energy to try again. I am mourning the loss of a baby and the loss of ever having a biological child. I don’t want to brush myself off and move on. I wish the embryo never implanted. Cruel joke to think for 72 hours that this 1 fighter that tested chromosomally normal was growing inside of me.
No one talks about part 2 of egg freezing. We need to start. If I could do it all again I would:
- Freeze multiple rounds
- Freeze embryos
- Really understand my AMH and FSH levels
- Stop working so many hours at shitty jobs
- Not count on my frozen eggs to work
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Oh, I am so so sorry!!! No words of advice, just my sincere sorrow.
Dawn: thank you. Your work at Creating a Family is inspirational. Fertility never follows the path we plan or hope for and we need to support, talk and learn from each other.
[…] “I was told on [the] Saturday that I was pregnant. I was told on [the] Tuesday the embryo had died. I have no more eggs to try. I have no more eggs to retrieve. I have no energy to try again. I am mourning the loss of a baby and the loss of ever having a biological child,” she wrote in an emotional post on her blog. […]
Heartbreaking and courageous you are for sharing. I’m sorry to hear of your loss and situation. Thank you immensely for sharing as I am just getting ready to start the egg freezing process and only thought briefly about the steps to follow once trying to get pregnant. Thank you again for being a brave woman!
I am so very sorry for your loss. I am in the process of freezing three rounds of eggs now. I am already 40 so I don’t have long to use them. I haven’t looked into freezing embryos, so thank you for sharing the hard lessons you have learned. I hope you are hanging in there. Xo
I totally agree. I hope this will not be us in a couple weeks (see my comment on your post about from 11 to 1).
Please keep me posted! My wait for genetic testing was over Christmas so lots of emotions tied up. I did a little dance when the 1 embryo tested was genitically normal. Wishing you good PGS thought…